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Just an ordinary woman who is struggling with life and study. Nothing much interesting. zufiaz87@gmail.com

Saturday, 29 November 2014

The chosen.. Alhamdulillah!!

Alhamdulillah, all praise to be to Allah! For lending us an opportunity to still be alive in this worldly dunya.. 

A clock tower in my uni (University of Birmingham), aka Old Joe! 

Giving a chance to live in this 4 seasons country, which definitely different from my home country (Malaysia), make me feel a little bit eager to learn about Islam deeply! 

Yeah, I always take things for granted back then, back to my ‘Muslim surrounding country’. You know, when you were surrounded by a Muslim culture, and being ask to do this, not to do that, without any clear reason behind it, you are totally in mess! I mean, as a young folks, we always follow what the other previous people do. For example, when I was 12 years old, my father always pushed me to wear a hijab whenever I wanna follow him out to somewhere. And at that point, I am not really aware what the clear reason behind wearing the hijab. Yes, I knew that every single Muslim women need to cover their hair, but not in clear version. They only said, ‘Allah will be angry if we not follow His rules’, that's all. Until I was like in secondary school, I learnt the ayah about the reason why He order us to wear a hijab, ‘..to make us recognised and not be abused..’(33:59). Telling you what, I am not blaming my father, indeed I am very thankful to him for whatever I am become right now! Alhamdulillah! Thank you Allah for borrowing me a parents that always do the best for me! 

The university's park in Oxford. Winter is just around the corner!! Lets prepare ourselves to not be freeze! 

When I first came to this country, I learnt  and practicing a lots about ‘Rukhsah (concessions)’ in Islam. For example the jama' and qasar (okay tak tahu apa in english) and the khuf things, which I don't even know it when I was in Malaysia. 

Yes, when we are far away from our country, and family, the feeling to find our own identify is really strong than anyone can tell! And with all the hurdles and obstacles that I faced, I realised that nothing will be done, except by His Will! 

All the mess that I did whenever I start my works! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

My workstation in school.

And my workstation in....my room!! Weehuu!!! 😜😜😜

When I am here, honestly I really keen to empower my self with Islamic knowledges, always try to attend an Islamic talk, join a halaqah etc. Frankly speaking, all these things won't happen if I am still in my ‘comfort zone’ (means still living in my country). Not mentioning that I'd better, actually I am still struggling towards it, but the thing is, He choose me to be given a ‘hidayah (guidence)’ to stay and shift into a better path than before. And for that, I really thankful to Him! Alhamdulillah! 

Thank you Allah for the bless 27 years in my life!! 

(Just something to be pounder upon, I don't really like the idea of what our eldest (Malaysian) told us so far about ‘Allah will angry, if we not follow His rules!’. This statement will makes our toddlers/kids become scared to the Almighty! Instead, we need to develop a love for Allah in their hearts, so that they will intentionally and willingly following His rules!! Okay, this is just my tuppence worth, as I am not really a mother, but hopefully in future, Ameen, insyaAllah!)

From Birm with love❤️❤️❤️

Sunday, 16 November 2014

Love: The heart of Marriage

Just wanna share something that I got during the seminar by Alburuj Press, with Yasmin Mogahed, couple of days ago.. 

“Love is any emotion. Eg. hatred is love, because someone take away something that you love, envy is love because you want something that you love etc.. 

Love is not a fairy tales. Its a realistic kind of things. We aim for the ‘halal’ love by marrying someone that we love, InsyaAllah. But marriage itself is not the final destination nor the ending, it just a begining to put our path back to Allah. 

In order to do that, we need to choose our spouse who can be the coolness of the eyes, not the one who can fix, fill or complete our empty heart! Allah is the only ONE who can fix it up for you! 

We all are a slave, either you're a Muslim or not, you are a slave! If you chase after power, you're a slave of power, if you run after money, you're a slave of money etc. You are the slave of what you love most! 

As a believer, we are a slave of Allah. Means, we have to put Him first in everything as we claimed that He is the eternal lover. Then back to our marriage, husband/wife and children are just a tools to please Allah, they obviously can't give us total comfort and happiness in our life! He is the one who give us life, and He is the one who can take it away from us. 

In Quran, Allah said, 

Yes, marriage is a sign! Its a sign to direct us the true path. From example, if we want to go to London, using M6, then we see a London exit signboard, we won't stop there right? It just a sign, not yet arrive to the destination. Same goes to marriage.. It just a sign or mean for us to get close to the Creator! 

Apparently, not all people will get married  in this dunnya. Marriage is just a gift/rizk from Allah to His slaves. Whatever He directed us to is the best afterall! Believe and put our trust on Him. Bad things won't happen to good people! All matters that happen are good for us either its easy/hard/simple/difficult to get. As He said in Al Baqarah verse 216 ‘...and may be you hate thing which is good for you, and that you love something which is bad for you. And Allah knows and you know not’. Its just a way to strengthen our iman or raise ourselves into specific level! SubhanAllah! 

When choosing a spouse, ask Him with Istikharah. Istikharah is to look for the best (Al-khair). Its not necessary to get a dream as a sign, (3 types of dream, 1. From syaitan, 2. From nafs/own desire and 3. Rukyah from Allah) yet we don't know for sure it is a sign or not. Then we need to go back to the dua in Istikharah, we asked Him to make thing EASY if its  GOOD in our religion, faith, life and hereafter and TURN IT AWAY if its BAD for us. Means, if it easy to get, it was destined for us, and if we face obstacles, try to leave it away! 

Again, marriage is a sign to direct us back to Him. If we put our life marriage in a right way, InsyaAllah the whole system will run properly! Prioritize Him, place our heart correctly by train it into the Deen,  pray 5 times daily ON TIME (its an oxygen to our heart) and dzikr.. Put Him first in everything!”

May He ease everything for you and me... Either you are married or not.. 
Allahumma Ameen.. 

From Birm, with love, 

Thursday, 13 November 2014


Izinkan aku menjadi bidadari itu....

Bidadari syurga didunia.. Penyejuk mata, penawar duka.. 

Izinkan aku menjadi bidadari itu.. 

Untuk ibu dan ayah tercinta.. 
Untuk bakal suami jika ada rezeki didunia..
Untuk bakal anak-anak jika diberi kesempatan dan masa..

Izinkan aku menjadi bidadari itu.. 

Lembut berbicara, tegas dalam urusan agama.. 

Izinkan aku menjadi bidadari itu..

Hidup penuh kasih sayang, cintakan Allah, Rasul dan kedua ibubapa.. 

Izinkan aku menjadi bidadari itu..

Aurat penuh dijaga, urusan akhirat menjadi matlamat utama.. 

Izinkan aku menjadi bidadari itu...

From Birm with love, 

Tuesday, 11 November 2014

Ultimate Test

While looking for some papers/journals to read, I came cross to this story about the Ultimate Test:-

Abu-ul-Hassan Siraj (mercy be upon him) said, “One day I set out for the performance of pilgrimage (Hajj). As I was making a circuit (Tawwaf) around the Holy Ka’ba, I happened to see a fair-faced woman. I said to myself, By God! I have never seen a woman with such beauty before. Perhaps she has all this beauty as she may not have suffered any grief or sorrow.” She heard this statement and said, “What did you say? By God! I am immersed in grief and my heart is afflicted with adversities and misfortunes and there is no one to share with me the pangs of grief.”
I asked her, “What has happened to you?” She replied, “My husband slaughtered a goat. My two small children were playing with each other and another was in my lap. As I got up, one of the children said to the other, “Shall I tell you how our father slaughtered the goat?” The other replied in the affirmative. Consequently, he. laid his brother on the ground and killed him like a goat.
He then ran away on account of fear, and climbed up a mountain where a wolf devoured him. His father went out in search of him and, during the course of his quest, he died due to the intensity of thirst.
I left the infant to sit and went towards the door of the house. The infant then crawled to the fire upon which the earthen pot was hung. As soon as he touched it, it fell and scolded him. As result his body was burnt removing the flesh from the bones.
I had one daughter left who was married. When she came to hear of this, she fell unconscious and died. It was I who was left alone.”
Shocked by this I asked her, “How did you bear all these misfortunes?” She said, “A person who would ponder over patience and impatience, would see much difference between them. The reward for patience Is great and for impatience, there is no reward.” Then, she recited the following three couplets which read: “I endured because endurance is the best thing to rely upon. If any advantage could be obtained by impatience, I would have adopted it. I endured many a misfortune, misfortunes of such intensity that if they were to have fallen on a mountain, it would have been reduced to dust. I have exercised full control over my emotions and never shed a tear. Now they are falling in my heart.”

Its really a tragic story though, but yet its still deep anyway! 
Sometimes, we are too busy to judge and compare others life without knowing how tough they gone through their life.
Life is a battle field anyway! 
Live! Life! Enjoy! And thankful to the Almighty for every little things He gave to us either good or bad.. Alhamdulillah.. May Allah bless.. 
From Birm, with love, 

Tuesday, 4 November 2014

Travelling alone- Solo trip! 😊

When I started to travel alone, people was like, ‘seriously?’, ‘aren't you afraid?’, ‘loner’ or even ‘pathetic..’ They can call me what they prefer, because its not even touch my heart as I know what the purpose I am doing that.. 😊✌️

I love to travel, even since I was born..lol! πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ™Š 

And thats the reason why I enjoyed travel alone, other than enjoying my ‘me-time’. But above all, travelling alone make me felt so close to Him. 

By travelling alone, especially when you are a woman, you need to be brave enough to face all the circumstance. That's how you will come back to Him. I mean, rather than believing other people, you will totally put your trust on Him. You will have some kind of faith that no matter what happen, He will always be by your side. And primarily, you will always..always..always..believe that He will always assist you in anything....

Allah.. Allah.. Allah... There is no God but Allah..the most Merciful, Kindness, Powerful, etc...

"Baiknya Allah pada kita, walaupun hari ini kita berdosa padaNya, tapi rahmatNya tak pernah kering terhadap kita.. Sebagai hambaNya, malu tak rasa-rasanya kita nak buat dosa?"

"Berharap hanya pada Dia, Allah yang ESA"

From Birm, with Love,

Thursday, 30 October 2014

My heart was block by sins!

All this while, I always plan a challenge to change my self.. Its seriously tough though, always didn't goes well as my plan.. And now, I just realised that my heart, mind and soul are saturated with sins, that's why its really miserable and difficult to stand still!

Looking back to my past, I always think that I am a good girl.. I used to be kind to other human being, I always try my best to be the best friend, never try to hurt my family's hearts, but.. one thing that I totally forgot, to remain my relationship to the Creature, Allah the Almighty! I mean, obviously I did all the compulsary things as a Muslim, but on the other hand, am I do it truthfully, or it just a same daily routine or habit that I must do? So, thats the thing!! 

Being a 27 yo woman, I start to see things differently. The questions like ‘why sometimes He doesn't grant my prayers?’ or ‘why I am really having a problem to be a good Muslimah?’ always knock down my head. Pathetically, the answer will always come back to me.. 

Poundering about my past, I started to dig my old few little albums. Now, I got the answer! For example, there was a period that I was like, not really particular about my aurat? I mean, I covered all, but not really complete😭😭 Its totally shameful and painful to tell everyone about this matter, but yeah, things happen.. And I think that's one of the reason why my relationship to Him is not really firm. My Iman keeps going ups and downs, and sometimes its really hard for me stay in a better path whilst doing all the good deeds, and avoiding all the bad deeds.. 

Yes, I am a woman, a bad woman indeed  with full of sins intentionally or unintentionally..

All these things came cross to my mind when few friends seeking my advice. Not telling that I'm a good problem solver or a motivator, but when problems happen, and I am no longer having a solution, I tried to reflect my self back. I mean, when something happen it might be a punishment from Him (like a karma?). Or it might be a sign for us to keep patient? 

One thing I pretty sure is, when our heart are no longer sincere to do good things, it probably because it was full of hatred, sins or even envious?? 

Dear heart.. Please.. Please.. Please.. Put Him first in everything.. Put the dunya aside, run for the akhirat instead! You, yes YOU, and ME, definitely, are not destined to remain forever in this dunya.. The life hereafter should be our aim, and Jannah should be our motivation! Biiznillah... 

From Birm, with love, 

Friday, 24 October 2014

This journey is ain't easy!

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24 October 2014, 30 Zulhijjah 1435

The last day of 1435! 

The new resolution should be made! And my resolution is to let go of whatever things that can't increase or strengthen my Iman!! All, yes, ALL!! 

I mean, if it have nothing to do to empower my Islamic knowledge, I'll try to let it go, slowly and consistently.. InsyaAllah! May He ease everything.. 

And back to my research, its going harder and tougher day by day, though!

And just now, I got this new microscope for another microfossils counting! Can you imagine, my small desk in postgrad room is now crowded with all my stuffs??  2 microscopes, 5 thick hardcover books, sample slide's drawer, desktop, and a tiny little space for me?!! πŸ˜“πŸ˜“πŸ˜“πŸ˜ͺπŸ”«

This journey is ain't easy, and yet it's going crazy! I mean, I have only a year, and I really need to do all these things!! Allah!! Allah!! Allah!! 

Allah, I desperately need Your Help, Merciful and Kindness to make me feel better and can get through this journey!! I am barely breathing here.. 😷😷😷

“May He always put me in a high level of sincerity to get through this journey!!” 

From Birm with love, 

Monday, 20 October 2014

The 6 weeks challenges begin!!

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20 October 2014/26 Zulhijjah 1435.. 

Nearly the end of Hijri year.. Another 3 years of Gregorian year to reach 30s! And yet, there's a lot of things to do and achieve!! 

Thus, I decided, to modify most of my bad habits (relatively) in order to improve and enhance the balance three years onwards and escape the degree of dissappointments towards the end of my life! Hopefully! πŸ˜ͺ

Here there are! The 6 weeks challenges:-

1. Social network! Take the techonology detox!!  

2. Healthy life style! Before my metabolism slowing down, I need to do something.. 

3. Focus! Focus! And focus on my study!

Read more, play less! 

Plan my future works, and work my present plans!! 

4. Last and foremost.. Have faith in Allah and depends totally on Him.. Seeking knowledge sincerely because of Him, and do all good deeds because of Him either! Follow our Prophet Muhammad saw sunnah in all aspect of life, and preventing myself to do or talk about mazmumah things!! 

“Apa-apa yang tidak menambahkan iman, perlahan-lahan saya cuba lepaskan..”

May He ease everything for me.. Allahumma ameen... 

From Birm with love, 

Thursday, 16 October 2014

Pesan pada hati, Allah ada!!

Pesan pada hati, Allah ada!! Dia sentiasa dengar, Dia sentiasa tahu..

Ye, 2,3 minggu kebelakangan ini, diri selalu jatuh sakit.. 
Frankly, disebabkan diri ini selalu sihat sampai lupa macam mana perasaan demam tu.. Until one day, badan rasa tak terlarat nak bangun, tak larat nak bergerak.. And I just remember back the old feeling of being sick!! Allah.. Allah.. Allah..

Doa dalam hati banyak-banyak, semoga kesakitan ini mengurangkan dosa-dosaku.. Ameen..

Tapi biasalah sebagai manusia biasa, perasaan sedih itu tetap ada.. Sedih demam keseorangan (tanpa family), sedih sebab stress banyak keje, sedih semua orang refer masalah pada saya (which at first I thought I can avoid this because I am living alone).. 

Bila kesedihan tu datang, kepada Dia jugalah tempat mengadu.. Because I am no longer trust any human, I mean, manusia tak boleh selesaikan masalah saya pun, walau macam mana saya mengadu atau merintih.. Huhu😭😭😭😭 Mungkin, bolehlah mendengar.. Ye, kerana saya selalu je mengadu sesuatu dengan seseorang yang saya percaya... 

Hati ini, ye hati ini.. mungkin lebih cenderung kepada dunia.. Kerana itulah hati ini jarang nak bersyukur, jarang nak redha.. 

Hati ini, ye hati ini.. mungkin lebih menjaga hati manusia, sedangkan diri tau, bukan kuasa kita untuk menjaga hati-hati manusia..

Hati ini, ye hati ini.. mungkin terlampau bergantung pada dunia dan manusia, sedangkan diri tahu dan pasti, hanya Allah tempat pengharapan yang sebaiknya... 

Allah.. Semoga hati ini, kekal melekat padaMu.. 

Pesan pada hati selalu, Allah ada.. Dia sentiasa Mendengar, Dia sentiasa Melihat, dan Dia sentiasa dekat dengan kita... 

*kesat airmata tu, senyum dan ucapkan alhamdulillah..diatas tiap-tiap nikmat dan rahmat yang dianugerahkan*

From Birm, with love, 

Saturday, 11 October 2014

Perkahwinan?? Kematian itu lebih pasti..

“Every soul shall taste death”

Pada suatu hari, berlaku satu situasi.. 

B: Hah, kamu tu bila nak kawen??

S: Mmm.. Belum sampai seru.. (Tersenyum)

B: Hah, jangan belum-belum sampai seru, tengok-tengok akhir tahun ni balik Malaysia, nak kawen!! 

S: (terkejut kena marah).. Hihihi.. B, ajal, maut, jodoh, pertemuan semua ditangan Allah.. Siapalah saya nak menidakkan takdir.. Tapi what I really concern right now is about my ajal.. Ajal tu lebih pasti daripada perkahwinan.. Kahwin??mm tak semua orang dapat kahwin kat dunia ni, tapi ajal, semua orang akan mati! Instead of focusing bila nak kawen, nak kawen dengan siapa, etc, etc., saya lebih takut dengan kematian.. Bersedia ke saya nak mati? Apa amalan sebagai bekalan saya nanti? Dapat tak saya pulang ke *kampung halaman* dengan tenang?? Ntah-ntah on the way balik rumah ni pun saya boleh mati? Allahu rabbi.. Tapi ini bukan bermaksud saya menidakkan perkahwinan.. Cuma its not the right time to talk about this matter.. When the time come, it will come.. InsyaAllah.. Research saya pun macam tu, I tried my best to finish on time, but He has a much more better plan for me.. Berusaha dan redha.. InsyaAllah.. Doakan saya ye!! 😊😊😊

B: (ketegangan makin kendur). Okay la macam tu, good luck with your study!

*Kita semua berasal dari keturunan nabi Adam. Dan nabi Adam ditempatkan di SYURGA pada asalnya. Jadi kampung halaman kita adalah SYURGA!*

Perbualan diatas dah selalu dilalui oleh kami-kami yang single dan sambung study ni.. B adalah boss-boss yang selalu meletakkan beban yang besar kepada kami. And the worst scenario is, they won't let us to get married?? Katanya nak suruh fokus??πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜“πŸ˜“

Kahwin atau tidak bukan masalah, masalah selalu datang disebabkan research itu sendiri, supervisor atau diri researcher tu sendiri..πŸ˜“πŸ˜“

Ya, benar.. Di usia-usia sekarang ni (semakin matang katanya), saya lebih takutkan kematian dari everything else.. Kematian sangat tidak mengenal usia.. Bila sampai masa, kita akan pegi jua.. 

“Setiap hari bila patah semangat, saya selalu doa supaya Allah mengikhlaskan hati saya dengan PhD ni.. Study pun ibadahkan? Kalau boleh, biarlah kesusahan belajar ini tidak sia-sia, malah menambah pahala sebagai bekalan disana nanti.. Ameen.. InsyaAllah..”

~Just my thought of the day.. ~

From Birm with love, ❤️❤️❤️

Wednesday, 8 October 2014

A story of a shopkeeper- as a reminder to us all..

There lived a pious man all by himself, who spent most of his time in praying, fasting and praising Allah. Almost all his waking hours were utilised in meditation and devotions. He was very happy with his spiritual progress. No wicked thoughts came to his mind and no evil temptations entered his heart.

One night, he dreamt a rather disturbing dream. He saw that a shopkeeper in the town was far superior to him in spirituality and that he must go to him to learn the basics of true spiritual life.

In the morning, the pious man went in search of the shopkeeper. He found him busy with his customers, selling goods and collecting money with a cheerful face. He sat there in a corner of the shop and watched the shopkeeper carefully. No signs of any spiritual life at all, he said to himself. His dream could not be true. But then he saw the shopkeeper disappear to pray his Salah. When he returned, he was busy dealing with money matters again.

The shopkeeper noticed the pious man sitting in the corner and asked: "As Salamu Alaikum, would you like something, brother?"
"Wa Alaikum As Salam. Oh! No! No!" said the pious man. "I don't want to buy anything, but I want to ask you a question." He then related his dream.

"Well, that is very simple to explain," said the shopkeeper, "but you will have to do something for me before I answer your question."

"I will do anything for you," replied the pious man.

"All right! Take this saucer; there is some mercury in it. Go to the other end of the street and come back fast within half an hour. If the mercury falls out of the saucer, you will hear nothing from me. There you go now."

The pious man took the saucer and started running. The mercury nearly wobbled out of the saucer. He saved it just in time, and slowed down. Then he remembered he had to return within half an hour, so he started walking at a fast pace. At long last he returned puffing and panting. "Here is your mercury, safe and sound," he told the shopkeeper. "Now tell me the true interpretation of my dream."

The shopkeeper looked at the pious man's weary condition and asked him: "Well, friend, how many times did you remember Allah while you were going from this end of the street to the other?"

"Remember Allah!" exclaimed the pious man. "I did not remember Him at all. I was so worried about the mercury in the saucer."

"But I do remember Him all the time," said the shopkeeper. "When I am doing my business, I am also carrying mercury in a saucer. I am fair, honest and kind to my customers. I never forget Allah Ta'ala in my dealings with other men."

"Men whom neither trade nor sale (business) diverts from the remembrance of Allaah (with heart and tongue) nor from performing As-Salaah (Iqaamat-as-Salaah) nor from giving the Zakaah. They fear a Day when hearts and eyes will be overturned (out of the horror of the torment of the Day of Resurrection). That Allaah may reward them according to the best of their deeds, and add even more for them out of His Grace. And Allaah provides without measure to whom He wills" [Al Quran, Surah an-Noor 24:37-38]

“A truely reminder to my ownself, please REMEMBER HIM all the times..”

From Birm with love, 


Friday, 3 October 2014

Munajat sempena wuquf di Arafah..

3 October 2014/9 Zulhijjah 1435

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Jumaat yang barakah!! 

Kopi dan pasta dari
Ust Khalid Isa An Nadwi

Ya Allah..
Anugerahkan kepada kami rasa takut kepadaMu yang dapat menghalangi kami dari berbuat maksiat kepadaMu.

Anugerahkan kepada kami kekuatan untuk mentaatiMu yang dengannya Engkau memasukkan kami ke dalam syurgaMu.

Ya Rahman..
Anugerahkan kepada kami  keyakinan terhadap qadha' dan qadarMu yang dengannya Engkau menjadikan kami merasa ringan atas semua musibah dunia yang menimpa kami.

Berikan kepada kami kenikmatan dan manfaat melalui pendengaran dan penglihatan kami dan berilah kekuatan kepada kami selama kami masih hidup serta jadikanlah semua nikmat dan manfaat itu tetap ada pada kami sampailah ke akhir hayat kami.

Ya Rahiim...
Jadikanlah kami sebagai hambaMu yang hanya menuntut balas kepada mereka yang telah menzalimi kami. Tolonglah kami Ya Allah dalam menghadapi orang yang memusuhi kami, janganlah Engkau timpakan musibah (keburukan) dalam urusan agama kami.

Ya Zaljalaali Wal Ikraam..
Janganlah Engkau jadikan kami sebagai hamba yang hanya menjadikan dunia sebagai tujuan utama hidup kami dan janganlah Engkau jadikan kami sebagai orang yang hanya mengetahui dan memikirkan dunia semata-mata.

Ya Qahhar Ya Jabbar..
Janganlah disebabkan dosa dan maksiat yang kami lakukan Ya Allah maka Engkau menjadikan orang-orang tidak mengasihi kami sebagai penguasa di negeri kami.

Maafkan kami Ya Allaah..
Ampunkan kami Ya Rahman..
Rahmatilah kami Rahiim..
Ameen Ya Rabbal A'lamiin...

Semoga doa-doa kita akan dimakbulkanNya.. Mari gunakan kesempatan ini untuk berzikir dan berdoa kepada Dia, pemilik Cinta yang Agung!! ❤️❤️❤️

Orang Malaysia jangan marah, kami raya dulu ye!! 😝✌️ 

From Birm with Love, 

Wednesday, 1 October 2014

Kembali kepada Tuhan

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1 Oktober 2014/7 Zulhijjah 1435h
27 yo and counting!! 

Alhamdulillah, genap 2 tahun bergelar pelajar PhD! Dan masih lagi diberi Allah kekuatan untuk meneruskan perjuangan.. Aim: finish PhD before 29! Means, before July 2016!! (ni tolak campur kalau nak extend sekali lah).. Ameen.. InsyaAllah.. 

Ditahun terakhir ni, diri mengambil keputusan untuk menyendiri.. Bukan bermaksud menyombong, tapi melebarkan lagi ‘space’ untuk diri sendiri dan semestinya kepada Dia yang Maha Pencipta.. 

Hopefully pindah di hall (student accomodation) ni, banyak masa dikhusus dan difokuskan untuk Dia.. Dan hopefully everything going be just fine!

Musim berganti, dari Autumn ke Winter, bertukar ke Spring, pindah ke Summer dan kembali semula ke Autumn the next year!! Pantas sungguh masa meninggalkan kita, Allahu Rabbi! Semoga masa-masa yang telah ditinggalkan dipenuhi dengan manfaat!

Motif penulisan ini adalah mengingkatkan diri khususnya, agar sentiasa kembali kepada Tuhan.. 

Sebenarnya, perbualan dengan seseorang membuatkan diri rasa terpukul, perbualan tentang sesuatu yang lebih pasti.. MATI! 

Baru sedar, selama ini diri mengejar sesuatu yang tidak pasti.. DUNIA..

Sibuk merancang hidup, sibuk merancang research, sibuk merancang sesuatu yang belum pasti.. Tapi MATI?? Tak pernah sama sekali merancang bagaimana pengakhiran diri.. Allah!! Allah!! Allah!!

Kemudian, sekali lagi diri tersentap, bila seorang kawan cakap sebelum berpisah, “kita jumpa di syurga ye!” Sedihnya.. Layakkah diri ini ke Syurga Mu??

Allah sesungguhnya diri ini sentiasa terleka.. 
Terleka dengan nikmat dunia yang sementara..

Diri selalu lupa..
Bila kita sakit, Dia yang sembuhkan..
Bila kita stress, Dia kurangkan..
Bila kita menangis, Dia legakan.. 
Tapi dimanakah Dia dihati kita pabila kita kegembiraan?? *sedashh tamparan terkena dipipi sendiri*

‘Ironinya, manusia bila dalam kesusahan, baru kembali kepada Tuhan..’

Allah!! Allah!! Allah!! Jadikan dunia didalam genggaman kami, bukan dalam hati kami!! 

Semoga hati-hati kita sentiasa dalam rahmat dan kasih sayangNya..

*banyak benda nak cerita, tapi lebih banyak benda yang perlu difokus*

From Birm, with love, 

Tuesday, 16 September 2014

Journey to the South England!

Okay, I promise, this will be the last weekend getaway for this year!! Need to be more focus with my study, its my priority here anyway! 

The journey began by visiting Bath-Stonehenge(yg batunya dah tak nampak, naseb baik dah pernah sampai last year)-Lulworth Cove-Durdle Door-Minack Theatre-Lands End-St Ives-Mandi laut UK-Hartland Quay-Clovelly Village! 

This time, our main focus are the beaches! And rocks as well (geologist la katakan 😍😍)

Day 1-Bath, Dorset

Royal Crescent, Bath

Roman Bath.

And because the entrance fee for Stonehenge is too expensive (atleast for us, yang tak rasa benda tu menarik sangat pun), so we decided to continue our journey to Dorset (Lulworth Cove and Durdle Door)..

Lulworth Cove, the place that I always go for fieldtrip πŸ˜…πŸ˜…

Durdle Door, a continuous rock formation of Lulworth Cove! All along the Jurassic Coast. The Durdle Door was formed by limestone arch from Portland Limestone. And as you go farther up, you'll find chalk as a cliff, along the beach! 

Day 2- Minack Theatre, Lands End, St Ives, mandi laut πŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ™ˆ

Minack Theatre, Penzance...

Land's End, penghujung tanah UK!! πŸ™ŠπŸ˜πŸ˜

St Ives beach.. 

Mandi laut time! Sorry takleh nk upload gambar tengah mandi, cekcii!! 

Day 3- Hartland Quay, Clovelly Village

A breath taking view of Hartland Quay.

Clovelly Village, where the steep, cobbled street tumbles down pass gleaming white cottages to the tiny, deep blue harbour!

Along the way, we found several farms! Berhenti tepi, snap..snap..snap...

But one place that we actually can't find, a black church rock.. We can't find the access to cliff actually!!πŸ˜“πŸ˜“πŸ˜…

Impian tak kesampaian.. 

Oh by the way, we stayed in caravan for 2 nights!!

Such a great opportunity to travel to the South England with nice person.. Alhamdulillah.. 

From Birm, with love,