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Just an ordinary woman who is struggling with life and study. Nothing much interesting. zufiaz87@gmail.com

Tuesday, 20 January 2015

6 K's for this year!!

Unlike the past 2 years, I seriously need to have aim this year (eventhough I made some resolutions for both years)! 

Aims, will make me more focus, and struggle to achieve all my goals by the end of the year! Hopefully!! 

Okay.. 6 K's for this year!!πŸ‘ŠπŸ‘ŠπŸ‘ŠπŸ’ͺ (My apology, its in MalayπŸ˜”πŸ˜”)

1. Kuat beribadah, amalkan sunnah

2. Kena habis PhD

3. Keluar negara (travel babe!!)

4. Kurangkan media sosial 

5. Kurus

6. Kahwin! πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ

Will review back all the status, midyear, and end of this year!! 😏😏


From Birm with love, 

Ba. Waw. Ra. Nga = Boring!!

Sampai satu tahap, kau terasa boring! Bosan hidup..

Bosan dengan maksiat yang kau buat, bosan dengan masa yang kau sia-siakan, bosan dengan segala macam perkara dunia yang kau kejar.. 

Dan sampai satu tahap, kau hanya ingin terjun ke tebing, berharap akan dihidupkan semula dengan penuh kesucian, tanpa dosa noda!


Tapi... Itu semua takkan berlaku.. Kerana engkau hanyalah hambaNya! 

Allah!! Pertemukan aku dengan orang yang positif!! Cukuplah seorang, supaya aku dapat meminjam aura positifnya itu, dan disalurkan ke segenap sistem saraf di otak ku ini, lalu bertindak balas dengan segala organ-organ dalamanku!! 


Keringnya hatiku, seperti keringnya air laut..

Allah, keringkan dosaku, seperti keringnya airlaut dipesisiran pantai, tatkala surutnya ia...

Allah, gembirakan hatiku, seperti tenangnya perasaanku bila berada di tepi pantai..


Allah, aku bosan, aku sunyi... 

Mungkin..Mungkinlah sebab diri ini dibebani dosa melimpah ruah...

Dosa, walaupun sekecil-kecil dosa, bila dikumpul-kumpul tetap menggelapkan hati...

Allah..kuatkan aku, seperti mana kau menguatkan pohon-pohon yang sentiasa tahan walau musim bertukar ganti...

Allah, tabahkan aku, tabahkan lah diri ini walau pelbagai dugaan Kau uji...

Allah... anugerahkan aku seseorang, pinjamkan aku seseorang yang cukup positif!!! Agar aku bisa menjadi positif kembali...

(I need to fill the void inside my heart...Allah)

From Birm, with Love,

The new life begun

I really miss the moment when I was 22! Just graduated, got a secure job, earned own money, spend time with parents at hometown, met new people and friends and started new life!

I just miss that moment.. the feel of freedom, out of stress, no man, single, and above all, young!!

I miss that moment.. Allah...

I just like a new person, happy with my life, not really struggle with all the hectic life demand, less commitments, bla..bla..bla...

My life was just perfect back then!  Allahhhhhhh...

I miss that moment Allah........

From Birm, with love,

Tuesday, 13 January 2015

Growing up kids

When I went back to my hometown, for visiting my family, I was shocked by how grown up my nieces and nephews be. 
And I somehow can't even accept the fact that they are really growing up! 

Few situations that shocking me: 
1. When my 4yo niece can structured an english sentence very well, and when she turned into ‘skema’ type of person by using word ‘saya/i’ to mention herself.πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ

2. When my 6yo niece told me that I shouldn't have any relationship because I'm still a student!! Goshhh!! I am 27, okay!! I am old enough for all this thing!! Hahaha.πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

3. And the most shocking question by my 10yo niece, “tak berjodoh lagi eh??” Hamboii!! Macam orang tua tanya!!😏😏😏

The truth is I can't brain all these things!! 😱😱😱 It was like I am getting older without realising it!! It seriously time to get panic, ohmy!! πŸ˜“πŸ˜“πŸ˜“ Mm, may be if I live in Malaysia, it won't be too shock like this! Because I'll meet them anyway, even not really frequent! But I left them about a year or two😭😭😭 Mm, nevertheless, life must go on! FightingπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ

“Umur bertambah, nyawa berkurang!!”

From Birm with love, 

Sunday, 11 January 2015

The forgotten blessings

Its been so long since my last posted. Quite busy to manage life and be happy!  After all, I don't have any idea to write down and share with others. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

2014 means a lot to me. My second year as PhD students, being a 27 yo woman, tortured by a life demand, etc, etc. 

Then something came cross my mind, because in my life, I've been through a series of unanswered prayers. I did prayed for somethings but eventually He didn't granted it all. For example: 

1. I want to study abroad after finish my SPM
2. I want to be an archeologist.

But when I started to think it deeply, He did answered my prayers, but with His own ways! 

1. He sent me here, to pursue my study (better late than never right?)
2. He directed me to study geology and became a geologist which is more or less similar like arheologist! 

Yes, He did, granted my prayers! Not in a way that I wanted, but in the way I needed. 

Looking back all the blessing He gave to me, am seriously couldn't count it all! But why on earth I always do something that will make Him angry?? Allahu rabbi.. 

Being alone, living in a student hall, far away from friends and family sometimes make me feel lonely.. Especially when I fallen sick alone (I was infected by a chronic cold and cough for almost 2 weeks). Then I started to realise one thing, actually lonely is not a problem at all, it just me, who didn't feel thankful and ungrateful with all His blessings! 

Yes, all of these was once my choice. I did asked for these. And He gave it to me, what I really need. Allah, please forgive me, for all my sins! 

 I hope 2015 will promise me a lots of love, happiness, joys and courages! May He bless and ease everything for you and me.. Allahumma ameen.. ;)

From Birm, with love ❤️,